It is impossible for me to exist on my own. I think being connected to everything around us is not something we do but a fact that we cannot escape. The mere fact that I came from another human being means I am connected to that person and the people before. I believe it is Alan Watts who says “the fact that you’re distinct doesn’t mean that you’re separated”. I think of humanity as one body that expresses itself in distinct ways but is not in any way separated. This is really a comforting idea, and this idea doesn’t only extend to human beings, the connection exists even with something as distant as the sun. It’s quite obvious that without the sun’s rays life on this planet would be impossible.
So I think about all the things and people who exist or existed and made it possible for me to here today. These are things I ponder in my solitude. Does the fact that I don’t have people around me at this very moment mean that I am alone? That cannot be possible. There’s memories, dreams and ideas all around me, I don’t need to be in the company of tangible or living things to feel connected. We all need to zoom out at some point, to imagine the bigger picture before understanding the details. After watching the movie Interstellar I had a conversation with the friends I was watching it with about how it would feel like to be on a planet where you’re the only human being there. How would it feel like so be so alone with just yourself and your thoughts, and how many of us can honestly say we can survive that kind of solitude. I have a different perspective about all those questions. I think it isn’t really solitude but rather stillness, and stillness means you are without any distractions.
Most of us are apprehensive about being in that kind of state because we can’t really bear the thought of confronting ourselves. This is why prisons use solitary confinement as a form of torture. Being isolated and disconnected is a frightening thing. So I think that if I were to experience that kind of solitude I would accept the stillness, I would confront everything within me, every fear, and every thought and knowing that I am not disconnected or separate, I would learn to appreciate a life of stillness and without distraction. I suppose this is better said than done though. How often do we make the time to be by ourselves even for a day? Being alone means eventually finding out what kind of person you truly are.